There are just too many victims in this world. A phenomenon I do not understand. Even though it suits me.

I log on to the virtual city, the realm of the senseless, in disguise. Tonight I am Lavender_Guest, cyberoque immortal offering sex and sudden death. Purple becomes my ciphered self and within seconds there is a clamour of disembodied voices, offering themselves as my freshkill. Their mindless eagerness to embrace death surprises me, sharpening the edges of my cynicism.

A: Sounds like an interesting combination, sex and sudden death!

B: Would it be possible to receive the sex part and not the sudden death?

C: Love me or kill me, or something... :)

D: Interesting description.

E: I like danger too.

F: Sounds like fun. 120 days of sodom and all that.

G: Are you one that provides the sudden death?

I tell them that to play my game one must be seriously self-destructive. They refute this, claiming that sometimes people just put their life at risk and do dangerous things to themselves without actually desiring death. G asserts that he likes erotic psychopaths.

Me: Why? You have a death wish? You offer yourself to be my thrill kill?

B: I’ll be your thrill kill.

I toy with the fools. Demanding that they prove themselves worthy of dying by my hands.

G: I'd prefer strangulation to stabbing? By what means do you provide death? Will you let me see my skin off of my body?

Me: Strangulation is a possibility, but I do not know whether I wish to provide you with the pleasure of an orgasm at the moment of your expiry.

H: You want credentials...how about well built, rich, into computers, future dentist, and all around nice guy!

A regular character tries to unmask me, saying that I have a deep-seated psycho weirdness going on. She yells that I am sick. I can’t dispute this, yet no-one else sides with her.

G is still obsessed with short term gains, asking what would be the point of letting me kill him if he didn;'t have an orgasm.I tell him to shut up and bone up on some Taoist texts and then get back to me. What a loser!

K: So have you ever considered killing anyone in real life?

Me: I haven't considered it, I have killed. That is why I warn people that my games are serious.

M: Do you always kill in your games, or just by accident?

Me: It was no accident, the person wanted it to be the natural conclusion of the game we had been playing for many months.

A wave of nausea perversely overcomes me as the ten or so wannabe victims vy for my fatal favours. I log out and take a shower, feeling emptier than usual.